Trust and Disappointments!@

Being a free spirit with a lot of interests, I have a never-ending supply of friends and acquaintances. I have always been a very trusting and giving person. And, I have always found rewards in seeing my friends happy. Yet, now, I question myself, should I stop being this way?

If fear can become an ally because it makes you cautious, would mistrust do the same?

I mingled in my social circles without fear.  And, I've encountered a lot of sharks that have wounded me drastically.  I've had friends who disappear in times of need.  Even worse, I've had friends who betray me for their own profit.  In fact, a year ago, a friend of mine stole my boyfriend by pretending to be his close friend and bad-mouthing me.

Recently, I found myself breaking the last straw that holds my belief in friendships. I was once again disappointed by another friend.  I trusted that person.  I cared for that person.  There was even a time when I told him that I loved him like a brother.  And, because I have always taken my friendships seriously, I've always been there for him.

Unfortunately, good things never last.  Knowing that he doesn't really respect me was one of the biggest disappointments in my life.  People tell me that it was just a nonchalant reply but to me it was a slap in the face -- The clearest proof of how he sees me now.  I've lost a friend.  His arrogant ego has covered up the person I once knew.  And, the monster that has replaced him is totally unbearable.  The monster has fooled him to believe that he is something great -- But to me, he is nothing... And, one day, when his meager accomplishments are no longer recognized, he will realize that.  One day, he will need my help. And, two words will be reply. F*** O**!

No more smiles.  No more kind words or gentle advices.  No more thoughtful deeds... Just plain hatred... Sayonara!

Comments

[Irene]

Hi dear,
Just wanted you to know that some friendships, though rare, last. And you'll find them shine through in unexpected times. Keep loving and believing.